TORE UP

Beat like oj to a pulp

Hard to swallow took a gulp

Best believe it's not fiction

Between the sheets felt friction

Heart was tore up tore up tore up

Wanted more of more of more of

What you couldn't give to me

That you couldn't live with me

My fault that's no mystery

Sitting inside this misery

Black Sabbath had a ministry

Its history what it did to me

Seperate ways spent civily

Keep it real don't kid with me

I hope youre better off baby

Happier than ever now lady

Fully awake not in denial

Cried rivers Egypt the nile

Clear cut the decisions final

Fall together leaves in a pile

Get better and better everyday

Walk on and on different ways

All said what we need to say

Memories feel like yesterday

Was I used or I the user

Never quit hit or abused her

Just have puzzled and confused her

Must have struggled to lose her

Love of my life from girlfriend to wife

Fight to the end did i treat you right

We go plus ultra with all of our might

Spred all our wings were taking flight

From the outside to blackest the night

Glowing and showing blind of the white

Climbing the mountain to fall from new heights

Don't know where I'll go or what I will find

ILLNESS

I'm sick with an illness

One with the stillness

Mental or fundamental

Rock pop or heavy Metal

Demented Delta dental

Finding what's most helpful

Self care or self sabotage

Truth dare duck dodge

Mystery or visage

Piles miles of garbage

Not mean but I can be

Asshole down low key

Obscure I'm in between

Obscene first time quality

Being elwith the best intention

Pretentious not to mention

Compultion of my obsession

ADHD anxiety depression

Misery isn't my business

It's is my occupation

How can you not feel this

Red buzz operation

Doctor I need to get a Labotomy

Go and take a lot of it out of me

He said she said dicotomy

Spiral down down like the economy

Gotta be forward not held back

Numb floating on a laugh track

Hitting reverse on this curse

Well ain't really that bad.

WAVERLY PLACE

Waverly place of witches

Heavenly place in ditches

Beverly hills of bitches

Cannot fathom what this is

It itches

Be the cure set an example

Be original Melody simple

I will stay at full moon

All chakras at full bloom

Got to have some faith hero

No completion place zero

BE KNOWING

God be knowing

I need reloading

My camo and ammo

My mind's a floating

Like bread I'm toasted

Good news I'm hoping

Smoke em if you got em

You know I'll be tokin.

Slowly growing

Heavy cab towing

Give a hand to the man

But don't go stroking

Find I'm omnipotent

Inside my mind I know it

Take a brisk risk just

Hope you don't blow it

When the works done I'll show it

Upstream kayak rowing

Believe and you'll achieve

Your dreams are golden.

Take your struggles and throw it

Away on your own you own it

Clear all of your fears

Right now is your moment.

FATE AND FAITH

Fate and faith are real

Make enough cheddar

To bake your next meal

Write yourself a letter

How does your chest feel

That's not the best deal

Ball on your nose

so it goes like a wet seal

Take your time stay on your grind

Keep it up see what you can find

All heals in time

This life is mine

WORK OUT

To work out the pain

Cause it never worked out

Riding the afraid train

out

Hate or love

Where does the path you lead

But don't go

Bite the hand you feed

Will this make me myself again

How have i become so numb

When love pours down like the rain

How have i become so numb

Tempest of manifestation

Our souls need to shine

Speak up for a decredation

Everything will be fine

I got a room with absolution

A house with creaky floors

Live with my own restitution

Basements windowless doors

While at work we contemplate

Why should we be fighting

Time to pour the fuel you fool

Campfire starts igniting

LOVER FIGHTER

Dreamt to be a wrestler

Lover not a fighter

I understand I'm a broken man

I've grown a little wider

I am but a mere mortal

Blinded from true combat

Some may say I'm lucky

They say that I don't want that

I want to reach my top

Point the peak the Pinnacle

Summit of my Everest

Physical mental spiritual

I don't know how I would do it

Or when I'm gonna get there

I know I will make it through

Focus breathe and self care

NO DISCREPANCIES

Verify no discrepancies

Report all deficiencies

First time qualities

Detain the delinquency

Block out imperfections

Put be in right directions

Follow you heart or not

You got good intentions

So please let me be

Need some self discovery

So please let me go

Need to lean to be alone

Make it on my own

Time flies having no fun

Like I've lost but on the run

Can't believe that you and me

Broke and battered happily

Too blind to see

I know I could do better

Could've been together forever

Loves with us deteriorated

Smile outward inner Infuriated

Don't waste your life

It's moves so slowly

Never squander your love

Or you'll end up lonely

DRY EYES

I can't keep my dry eyes open

Looking to the sky

I got to keep on trying hoping

Opens the third eye

Leap of faith I don't know when

All inside your mind

It's all worth the work I'm showing

Highest of the high

Circumstances

Circle trances

Look to the sky

While purple dances

We're exchanging

Passing glances

Times right now

No second chances.

Long dirt road where am I going

Either way I'll stay ill be growing

Lazy river flowing

Gold member holding

Chicken dinner feeling sicker

Food poison moaning

Have no controlling

To stay on track

Mind is reloading

Fade to Black

Into reality snap back

So take a step back

What's reality what's life

What's pain what's strife

USE IT

I use it before I lose it

Struggle to break through it

Drew it then I knew it

Responsible don't abuse it

Do I really want appraise or applause

Cash money rules emoluments Clause

Others money and admiration

Face seen across the nation

Or does all that scare me.

If I can't show inside Where's me?

A queer fear why am I here

Darkness take care of me

Filtered my light shines

Hidden hives in my mind

I want to make you tingle

in all the right places

currently single

all long faces

No time to mingle

open our cages

Cant have just one

Pringle can phrases

HOPSCOTCH

Jump up like a hopscotch

Looking at my stopwatch

Use your cubes to cool fool

Your shock top hot scotch

I'll be on my way wait

Home early won't stay late

Let this be flying free

My final resting place

Bitch is on my resting face

Acting like a mental case

Buttons being pushed

To far I'm testing fate

In my waist I'm gaining weight

In a daze I'm feeling great

Firing off some hand grenades

Living like we're renegades

MENTAL HEALTH

Mental health is struggling

Like an old model t Engines sputtering

Trip over words Stumbling and stuttering

Under my breath muttering

How can I clear this fog

We're all just a number

Gears a wheel full of cogs

Wonder day dreaming slumber

flies for the frog

Truth lies sick as a dog.

Something is not quite right

Constant feel of fight or flight

Breath of light or dark of sin.

Really doesn't matter lose or win.

X2

Days and weeks blurring together

Rain pouring down

My mood reflects the weather

Keep your head up or drown

Focus ready for whatever

Spread my winds pluck my loose feathers

Got to learn from my mistakes

Day by day 1 at a time

Cleaner air intakes it shakes

I'm destined to find

What true love really makes

Whatever is takes. Bacon pancakes.

Somethings not quite right

Constant feel of fight or flight

Breath of light or dark of sin.

Really doesn't matter lose or win.

X2

Open the door step outside

Out of my shell nowhere to hide

Thank the universe you're alive

Take a breath before the deep dive

X2

Somethings not quite right

Constant feel of fight or flight

Breath of light or dark of sin.

Really doesn't matter lose or win.

X2

Life is suffering Existence is pain

I dont want to feel this way again.

Negativity will leave a stain

Set a chain reaction to the brain

Sometimes feel completely insane

One way ticket on a runaway train

Pick your poison or pick your strain

Clouds clear out there no more rain.

Somethings not quite right

Constant feel of fight or flight

Breath of light or dark of sin.

Really doesn't matter lose or win.

X2

NOBODY’S HONEST

Nobody's honest

Noones seems real

Thinking it's so funny

Take all our money

For their own thrills

Won't clean up their spills

Everyone's fading

Broken our wills

Think it's so funny

Hate us all honey

No name in their wills

Feelings of chills

Crossing of wires

Encroaching fires

Gospel of preaching the

Screeching of tires

Ooh yeah Randy savage

Slang round all this cabbage

Confusing and loosing

Our minds and our baggage.

We don't care Self deprication

Projects out the External Nation

jokes good now Self deprivation

Sprial it down eternal damnation

Down into Depression

Rise with Self reflection

Teaching yourself a lesson

Part of your world selfish session

Spend your time less stressing

Level up player buttons pressing

Kindness love you must find

The inner workings of my mind

Behind my eyes are an enigma

Smoking sigmas a Social stigma

An eye sore. Mine I roar. Fly I soar. Minotaur!

WILTED

Like a Wilted flower

In the pouring rain

Head down low

I feel the same

Petals piled

On faded ground

Mind full denial

Won't hear a sound

Shut off so shut off

Mentally physically

Cut off im cut off

Water me take care of me

Shut off so shut off

Mentally physically

Cut off im cut off

Water me take care of me

But when that flower blooms

Break out of my caccoon

Escape the prison of my mind

That sunshine I gotta find...

X2

Like a wilted flower

Hang my head in sadness

Sun gives power to

Overcome madness

Problems faded away

Light it burns bright today

Clear skies with dry eyes!

No more pain no more rain

Shut off so shut off

Mentally physically

Grow up grow up

Water me take care of me

Shut off so shut off

Mentally physically

Grow up grow up

Water me take care of me

But when that flower blooms

Break out my caccoon

Escape the prison of my mind

That sunshine I gotta find...

Br.

Slowly falling to the ground.

I pick my self up. I let my self down.

Getting back up on my feet.

Trees of yellow red Leaves

(Claps repeat once build up)

Day has come round again.

Ain't bringing back that cloud again.

Capture Photos of my synthesis

Rapture of my happiness.

I'm wilted wilted I'm wilted!!!!

I'm wilted wilted I'm wilted!!!!

Sing with chorus

But when that flower blooms

I'll break out of my cacoon

Escape the prison of my mind

That sunshine I got to find

(Wilted wilted wilted wilted)

(Lifted lifted lifted lifted)

Mind is set on over drive

Finally got mine piece of mind

Like a bee up in it's hive

No longer low head heald high

Ticking faster wasting time.

Blossom growing on my grind.

Was defeated now I thrive

Now it's your turn come alive!

I'm wilted wilted I'm wilted!!!! X2

But when that flower blooms

I'll break out of my cacoon

Escape the prison of my mind

That sunshine I gotta find.

But when that flower blooms

I'll break out of my cacoon

Escape the prison of my mind

That sunshine I got to find

Like a wilted flower

My petals are gone

Losing my shine

Can I go on

Out of the darkness

Shining some light

Peak through the clouds

A beautiful sight

Procedure compliance

There's no defiance

Followed the rules

By breaking the silence

Step by step

Down to a science

Let's get together and

Form an alliance

A RUT

Sitting all alone here stuck in a rut

Shitting out the mouth not my butt

Basement is full full of bad habits

No progress just stress it's tragic

It's all right there you can have it

Believe you can the rest is magic

Stay in your head all this panic

Turns your depression to manic

I want to be free

Feel this wind around me

I just want to fly

Spread my wings high

So it's time to go.

Time for me to show.

Love and let live.

There so much to give.

X2

Holding tight losing my grip

White knuckles going to slip

Desperate me for free fall

Separate me from it all

So if you want to fly free from this

Learn to fall to the ground and miss

Rise above mountains the devils kiss

It's my own smile that I miss

I want to be free

Feel this wind around me

I just want to fly

Spread my wings high

So it's time to go.

Time for me to show.

Love and let live.

There so much to give.

X2

Come on people flap those wings

Love even the simple things

Up up up up sun in the sky

Let the fresh air get you high

So it's time to go.

Time for me to show.

Love and let live.

There so much to give.

X2

It's a mindset! It's a headspace!

It's a long road! A snail pace!

A fine time is well spent.

A fine wine is well sent

A fine line is hell bent.

My mind's mine can tell when I.

The stressing and confession

The depression you mention

Universe reversed direction.

Worth the worst curse testing.

No past just forward Progression.

On your knees genu deflection.

They praise haze voter suppression.

More power to teach us a lesson.

Gays and gender trans gression.

Fuck marry kill your genital intentions.

Curious about our general erections.

Cause of all their micro aggressions.

Furious about our gentle reflections.

Start a revolution never my intention.

One solution for my sitting tensions.

Vote hope in this desperate election.

RYAN RANTING

Do you got a card on you?

Ed bassmaster bardle Doo.

I really do do Kung Fu kempo jujitsu

I kick you in the shoe because I refuse to hurt you. Can we just talk it out so we don't end up in Emergency room.

Type my words in an office documents.

To perserve my perverse words

world I've been talking in Walken in oh!

My own reality need no Oculus.

Mayonnaise is not instrument

Graze on your sandwich condoment.

Protect your breath kids you got a mint.

Undercover safety that's what condoms meant.

But things happen and life finds a way.

Fate is magical. Power tyranical.

When I have kids perspective will flip on it's head I say.

For me I've raised baby birds with an ex. Hand feeding offspring of bird sex. Beautiful fluffy balls of anger and life.

This woman used to be my wife.

pushed things outside my own self. They rely on you But you can't rely on yourself

We should follow thanos.

Cleans half the world that breaks us.

Could save us or enrage us.

World would be better off with a rapture. Free the good evil capture.

We don't need any slimy raptors.

Because love and understanding are the ultimate factors.

My life has been grand.

But theres questions well never understand.

How things can be going well on the outside.

On my inside of lies has died.

CAN’T FOCUS

All over the place can't focus

Nothing's right and hopeless

Feel stuck in the ground

Our love comes as a bonus

Have the strength to show us

Kharma comes back around

Getting all in order

Gonna do it for her

All is well in time

Don't exist like borders

Got a car with 4 doors

It'll be just fine

Self motivated power of will

Wait in this spot until

Looking out that window still

Spill coffee on the window sill

These chills feeling naughty

These chills fill my body

These chills that you give me

I want you with me

SELF CARE

Words aren't enough to define

Take a breath up in the sky

Got me shaking on a wire

Frozen let go you're fired

Fuels my spirit floating lighter

Maloney baloney never tired

Only in dreams it seems I find her

Step on up touch gloves fighters

Get that ink paper cultivate stacks

Focus is not hopeless my self love lacks

Stay humble in the jungle I gather facts

Time and space out of place tics and tacks

Boomerang breakthrough coming back

Escape and break fast constant attack

Stay golden pony boy got on track

Men of steel man they do not crack

PERFECT BODY

I don't got a perfect body

No girl on my arm burnin hottie

No place of my own stay home

Because some people forgot me

What can I do to make a change?

Sing songs sit back home on the range

This government has made a stain

Sorry to the ones who lost the game

Ahead of me I was naive

Inside agreed with just my needs

I live to be comfortable and loveable

World won't change says stay humble.

To be comfortable is to be complacent is

To not strive to better arrangement is

To not care for thy neighbor is

To close your lid Tupper Ware container

Just different in how they were raised

oh boy back in the good ol days.

Glory to out childhoods of the past.

Not focused on the present aside is cast.

As a caste focused the low not the high.

We're all connected you and i

There will always be those who

choose to live less and those who

prosper and those put there by the plan

of the man triangle eye he sees through.

Idk my point. my decision optimistic.

Got clearer prescription optometric.

Clear view see through me and you

Your own alignment awaken I come to

DEEP SLEEP

I dont care any more

Lying naked on the floor

Noone cares any more.

What the hell you waiting for?

Doin it for the hell of it

I'm not a donkey or an elephant

I'm not important I'm irrelevant

Doin it for the hell of it

I don't know better

No one else knows.

But I DO know better.

Bitter badder I suppose.

Head full of woes.

Curl your toes.

No time for hoes.

Lick my fingers Doritos.

Chase it. you can replace it.

Gotta own up. And face it!

X2

Ready for that deep sleep

Fly me away

High up in the clouds

No rain falling down

Dangerously cheesey

Dangerously sleezy

White and asthmatic

Call me wheezy.

Extra saucy

Salad tossy

Throw me a rope

Gotta flossy

Graced by your face

buy you presents

I'm not worthy

by your presence

Chase it you can replace it

Gotta own up and face it

X2

Ready for that deep sleep

Fly me away

High up in the clouds

No rain falling down

Hard to lose your nerves

They haven't helped before

I know the right path

Recalculatung a Detour

Take the road less traveled

May be rough and Rocky

Fight through it just begun

Don't get too cocky

Got that passion to write and sing

Soaring sky's with a broken wing

Not proving tough am I enough

We're all puppets cut your string

Chase it you can replace it

Gotta own up and face it

Unlike the days old masses

This sabbath is dark and black

Light ends the tunnel passes

Crazy train flying off the track

Chase it you can replace it

Gotta own up and face it

X2

Ready for that deep sleep

Fly me away

High up in the clouds

No rain falling down

(Fade away to nothing)