SCRAPS #098: VANITY

It's not all about the vanity

It's all about our sanity

How can I be the one to

Calm down this calamity

Controlling is the industry

Emperor ruling recklessly

America beautiful empire

On fire hate filled endlessly

How can I be

How can I be

The change in our culture

How it works thinks and acts

Throw away the lies

And focus on the facts

How can I be

How can we be

This is my heart in words

Future concern for the worlds

Around and around

It all still turns

Never about the presidential race

Looking at their residential face

Leaders judge the melanin

All of us are living in

But it's all about now now now

Sheep heard the cow cow cow

This my souls a vow vow cow

Past the future in the now now now

SCRAPS #097: USE IT

If you don't use it you'll lose it

Struggle to break on through it

Drew it first and then I knew it

Responsible so don't abuse it

Do I really want appraise or applause

Cash money rules emoluments clause

Others love cash and admiration

Face has been seen across the nation

Or does all that scare me.

If I can't show then where is me?

A queer fear why am I here

Darkness take care of me

Filtered my light shines

Hidden hives in my mind

I want to make you tingle

In all the right places

Currently single

All the long faces

No time to mingle

Open our cages

Can’t have just one

Pringle can phrases

SCRAPS #096: UBER MAN

I really want to be the uber man

Go and battle evil with my hands

Ahhhhh...

I really want to be a Superman

Fly no I don't really understand

AAAAAAAH!!!

SCRAPS #095: TRUST

Trust that you might like it

Just let go you can't fight it

Free for me don't buy it

Right there for you

Make happiness don't deny it

Ones who inspire ones who supply it

So easy for you to acquire it

Right there for you

Oh oh

Tide dragon sea down over me

Oh oh

Lifting me let it be set me free

Comes around and back again

Feeling weak less masculine

This week days adamant

Buff that out it had a dent

I'm broken but I'm hoping

I'm rolling I'm smoking

Face poking I have spoken

Deep breathe JRR toking

Depressed pushed compressed

Heavy pains in my chest

Contest most likes content

Eyes crust rectangle objects

Small medium to large screens

Programmed for latter means

Inside are muffled screams

Outside looks fine it seems

Priorities I just got to focus

Negativity makes you hopeless

We all know this

We need to own it

Good vibes to the forefront

Left and slammed the door

See you next Tuesday

Tomorrow is a new day

Oh oh

The deterrent of the current

Oh oh

The pleasant of the present

Body and mind reach peak evolution

Greater good leads the revolution

All problems more than one solution

Time to ride and save our institution

SCRAPS #094: TRUE POWER

We don't need a record deal

We don't need a sponsor

They all do it for the money

We do this all for honor

Not all this is surface level

Its dives deep much farther

Loose lips sinks their ships

Set sail out of that harbor

Step on up speak on out

to those who try divide us.

We all got the true power

That is burning inside us.

Step up and speak out

It's time to unite us

We all got the true power

That is burning inside us.

Time is strange we got to change

Keep the peace yeet the hate

The rich are willing to take your dish

Then they break your dinner plate

In my mind I contemplate

For all those who have none

On our minds they operate

The rich have always one

Step up and speak out

to those trying to divide us.

We all got the true power

That is burning inside us

Step up and speak out

It's time to unite us

We all got the true power

That is burning inside us.

We stay real we stay humble

Can't stay silent in the rubble

Need an honest upbringing

Got to stop and start up singing

Oh no scorpion starts stinging

Pay by hour powers sinking

Fill them with up all with this toxic

In heads we bought it they cocked it

We fight each other they look down

On our own we're left to drown

Kids in cages with keys they locked it

Before the war they're in their cockpits

Step up and speak out

to those trying to divide us.

We all got the true power

That is burning inside us

We the people weep the people

We the people weep the people

SCRAPS #093: TORN UP

Heart was all tore up tore up tore up

Wanted a lot more of more of more of

What you could not give to me

That you could not live with me

Beat that orange juice to a pulp

Hard to swallow took a gulp

Best believe it's not fiction

Between the sheets felt friction

My fault that is no mystery

Sitting inside this misery

Black Sabbath had a ministry

Its history what it did to me

Separate ways spent civilly

Keep it real don't kid with me

I hope you are better off baby

Happier than ever now lady

Fully awake not in denial

Cried rivers Egypt Nile

Clear cut decisions final

Fall together leaves a pile

Get better and better everyday

Walk on and on different ways

All said what we need to say

Memories feel like yesterday

Was I used or I the user

Never quit hit or abused her

Puzzled and confused her

Must have struggled a loser

Love of my life from friend to wife

Fight to the end to treat you right

We go plus ultra with all of our might

Spread all our wings were taking flight

From the outside to blackest the night

Glowing and showing blind of the white

Climbing mountains fall from new heights

Don't know where I'll go or what I'll find

SCRAPS #092: TOO MUCH

Too much death too much hate

Why won't they all cooperate

Corporation holds a copper plate

If you're sick they won't operate

Too much boredom border traces

Pull up boot straps by the laces

All us come from the same places

Mother's the same human races

Too much misinformation

Degrades focus concentration

Exercise out the aggravation

Expertise in consolidation

Too much people always criticize

Who says we can't sympathize

The differences you emphasize

Are also seen with fearful eyes

SCRAPS #090: THUNDER CLAP

Under ourselves indivisible

We're run by these individuals

We can't see in the visuals

Taking all our 99 percent residuals.

Luke I am not your father

Floating suspended underwater

Burns hot together metal saucer

Souls wove equal son or daughter

I know I don't have it together.

Rain cloud clap bad weather.

Groups of feathers flock forever.

Stuck in a trap that I got to sever.

Crumbling from this fragile nation

Why resort to condemnation

I know I'm blessed but still stressed

Needs some elevation

With this lack of communication

Reasons for my internal flagellation

Stuck here in this fragile station

Tried to escape vacation cancelation

Found it all in you but you

choose to choose another dude.

Give all of me its rude your attitude

This love from you was pre-chewed.

I know I don't have it together.

Rain cloud thunder clap loud weather.

Groups of feathers flock forever.

Stuck in my own rut that I got to sever.

So that's all I got.

Not to pick on you or pick your spot.

Living the life that I'm given.

Seek out my destination my vision

Cause my cause of addiction

Love conquers life's ambition

End of the road

bottom line stone cold

wherever I roam

To find my own home cause.

Rain cloud thunder. Clap clap clap.

Pain now mother. Clap clap clap

Rain cloud thunder. Clap clap clap

SCRAPS #089: THE SPOT

At the spot locked in a box

Welded in a metal case

United of our mental states

Makes us all a mental case

As it states our divided place

We feel we are no use

It's you not me gaslighting

Manipulation and abuse

Blindly following they

Are tainting democracy

Big men small words

Fascist aristocracy

Cattle in line unheard heard

Rattle of the mind unnerved nerd

Saddle up for battle

Cause bird is the word

Long times of aggravation

Long filed experimentation

Waiting for a lucky revelation

Lives of quiet desperation.

Time ticks by so fast

Let it grow then cut the grass

Reveal your face or wear a mask

Roll a joint or grab a flask

All so backwards and fucked up

The politicians should be locked up

We need real leaders

Not deep dwelling bottom feeders

I don't care to get political

Maybe don't have good advice

Craving a nice New York slice

Take a bite literal

I'm just a privileged man

Thrust into a world of envy

Recklessness and agitation

Compassion burns within me

I am not a billionaire

Got all of my real hair

I don't have a final answer

I will listen if you care

We are all just fucking humans

Living on this rock water globe

We all want love and attention

Noone really wants to be alone

Time ticks by so freaking fast

Let it grow then cut the grass

Reveal your face or wear a mask

Roll a joint or grab a flask

All so backwards and fucked up

The politicians should be locked up

We need real leaders

Not deep dwelling bottom feeders

The curse of this universe will be reversed with this first verse

SCRAPS #088: THE NEST

The nest dried up like that botany

No water I'm a goner you got any

Death it soon will come for me

Staying put won't comfort me

Nerves cursed with anxiety

I'm the one who lies to me

Souls been broken constantly

Full of sin come fly with me

Drifting out my comfort zone

Melted I scream with no cone

Feel so alone face in my phone

Stuck in a rut i want to go home

Still lying down prone in my bed

Empty the bone here in my head

I have not done yet what I've said

Silence the violence I hear instead

Lost track of time

I'm doing what's best

Can't find my mind

I've gotten no rest

Gave all my heart it

Was ripped out my chest

Learning to fly high

I'm leaving this nest

SCRAPS #087: THE ILLNESS

I'm sick with an illness

One with the stillness

Mental or fundamental

Rock pop or heavy Metal

River delta dental

Finding what's most helpful

Self-love or sabotage

Truth or dare duck dodge

Mystery or visage

Piles miles of garbage

Not mean but I can be

Asshole down low key

Obscure I'm in between

Obscene first-time quality

Being the one with the best intention

Pretentious not to mention

Compulsion of my obsession

ADHD anxiety depression

Misery isn't my business

It's is my occupation

How can you not feel this

Red buzz operation

Doctor, I need to get a lobotomy

Go and take a lot of it out of me

He said she said dichotomy

Spiral down like the economy

Gotta be forward not held back

Numb floating on a laugh track

Hitting reverse on this curse

Well, isn't it really that bad.

SCRAPS #086: THE FOREST

Can’t see the forest, through the trees.

Blinded eye lids succeed their disease.

Gone from the Earth up to the skies!

Down in a hole broke choked and died.

What you feel here temporary.

There flies the hero ordinary.

Clouds of smoke has all disappeared

it's all a mindset switching of gears

It is all a mindset

We’d jump over the moon

For some good vibrations

Don't give up the fight in your head

Know our seeds grow happy trees

Anything else go to bed like

Everyone else well be dead

Escaping the shelf replacing our time

Erasing yourself drawing your line

Copy and paste it all out my mind

Well just encase keep what you find

We jump over the moon

For some good vibrations

Don't give up the fight in your head

Know our seeds grow happy trees

Anything else go to bed like

Everyone else well be dead

Cow jump over the moon

for some good vibrations

Don't give up the fight in your head

Know our seeds grow happy trees

Anything else go to bed

Like everyone else you'll be dead

SCRAPS #085: THE CORNER

Again, in the corner

What have I done now

I've really did it this time

Why do I even try to reach

To connect to confess this time.

I set my expectations too high

I try too hard I fall too hard scarred

Heart peace this odd outside evening.

Make out head inside sickening.

Seething pounding pulsing.

Heart is racing pumping.

I crossed the line

I'm not ok I'm not fine

Why do I even bother

A kind of kind appreciation

Is that all I really want

It's insane membrane anticipation

All I wanted was my own

And now I'm all alone.

I hate myself. I escape my health.

I have this life I don't know what's right.

I show love and try to go above.

Do I do these things for all you?

This book is personally overdue.

I see love but I don't feel it

I'm spiraling in a whirlpool of tension

The pain in your face was my invention

Tend to the time ascension prevention

Feel so deep you still want to keep

My life my heart my art to be apart

It's you I hurt wear my sweat shirt

Cannot escape the pain thing

Abstract landscape painting

I'm the kid in the corner.

I can't turn around.

I'm the kid in the corner.

I can't make a sound.

I'm the kid in the corner.

I don't understand.

I'm the kid in the corner.

Please take my hand.

Please

SCRAPS #084: SUMMER BACK

I want summer back

I got all I ever wanted

I want some of that

To rid of feeling haunted

Not going anywhere won't be too far

The moon and stars

Tear at my heart heal these scars

Go follow your heart

Shot in the dark

Love is the spark

Where's is my own motivation

I ask staring at the screen

Familiar faces dream occupation

Setting up a live stream

I'm mad I'm pissed ask what is this

Why have i been so down

I pull i tug ask what the fuck

At strings that make me drown

Where is my fire my desire

My sweet sensation

In a different location

Prison of decision dedication

If I don't stay strong for long

It will break the chain of consequence

I am the only one that

I'm not being honest with

I want summer back

I got all I ever wanted

I want some of that

To rid of feeling haunted

Lack of chemicals in my brain

Slowly turning me insane

Behavior motivator of pain

Sometimes you just need to change

Your life from the mundane

When you can just stand up and sing.

SCRAPS #083: SPACE WHALE

I am a space whale love is my blubber

I hate it so much to see other suffer

Do not like the glue so use a rubber

Like being in a boat with no oar or rudder

Sometimes I feel like I'm everyone's daddy

Feel like a golfer without their own caddy

It’s not my job to make all of them happy

But man, I am so super I'll do that gladly

To those with none or one on Father's Day

If they are close or far away

Parent yourself smarter stay

Take your time martyr way

Take me to that promise land

Create a future with my hand

We are all just getting by setting our own scene

We're all just making pretty pictures to feel seen.

It hurts like a curse but feels way worse

Want to be an ostrich head in the dirt

It's no marathon won't come in first

Don't be scared so quench your thirst

I don't feel like Jesus I feel like a Judas

Needed my help the truth is ruthless

Can't save them all I feel so useless

Enter the dragon but my bite is toothless

Oh the places we'll go walk swim or drive

To be the perfect dad I will now strive

For those around those who alone cry

Be thankful you're here and that you're alive

Take me to the promise land

Create a future with my hand

We are all just getting by setting our own scene

We're all just making pretty pictures to feel

SCRAPS #081: SO INSECURE

I'm going under so insecure

Under the sea to the sea floor

Explode my insides with a C4

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Addicted to that dopamine chemical

I need me a medical professional

These decisions not flexible inevitable

........

Permission to feel physical anxiety

Time to heal emotional memory

Get all this madness out of me

........

Takes away power of gladness

Due to my excess of sadness

Manifesting me into madness

SCRAPS #080: SHORT / SWEET

Short and sweet

You have value just can't see it

Shine on own it and believe it

Stable and capable convieve it

The worst minds deceive it

Good vibes only receive it

Pony boy stay golden retrieve it

SCRAPS #079: SHIP TOGETHER

Getting our ship together

Through the waves and stormy weather

Time to set sail even if I fail

Could this be forever

I will get my ship together.

Drowning in the shallow waters

Too weak to stand up

Continues to pull you under

Just one thing that I wonder

How are you wide awake

While you're sleeping with the fishes

Too real to run away

Face the fear and grant my wishes

Getting my ship together

Through the waves and stormy weather

Time to set sail even if I fail

Could this be forever

We'll get our ship together.

Waters at low tide but

I will keep on swimming

Always feel you lose

Now time to start winning

Stuck in one place

Up a creek without a paddle

Mystery off to the races

Seahorse with no saddle